I've got a holster that I keep empty.

"On a bank?" She asks.

2005-04-22T06:18:03Z

"Our father..."
If they fall then
I'll say...
I said,
"Let them lie."
Same goes for you.
But don't discourage yourself
Not yet,
It's got days on days of heavy breathing
(past)
It just found it's way to me
So,
Somehow...
So,
Someway...
I'll get this back to you.
We can chase the streets of indecision
"It's too common."
(present)
And I've watched you cross your heart
A thousand times
It's your favorite scar..
....you've got it memorized
And To this river
I drank myself dead
While I toasted the doctors who washed their hands clean
As slow as it burns
The cigarette keeps beat
(future)
With the lions and their subjects praying on their knee's:
"I'm the one you wanted,
The fight,
The love,
The martyr.
A lesser man could whisper
So raise your voice,
Raise your fists,
Now raise you glass, this drink goes out to me."

Dime phrase's 'Cross a Moonlit table

2004-12-03T05:35:43Z

I'm not partial to your idea's
No,
It's not what I remember
at...all.
'Cause the time we spent on wishing
Was wasted from the start
"I wish, I wish, I wish..."
...We didn't have this conversation
And when I woke up this morning
I dressed for a funeral
Lets call it
wishfulthinking
Or just a way to show you that I'm all business
"And this means..exactly what?"
"Nevermind."
This shouldn't be a hassle
but lets be honest
it had to be.
And my mirror acts more like a window
A warning sign
'Cause the ball is in your court tonight
So sink me fast
or stay and fight.
Take your pick
Take your pick
"I'm just calling to let you know,
I'll be home soon and I'd like to see you there."
Well,
I'd like to be a hummingbird
But we get what we deserve
We got what you've been asking for.
"So long."

streetlight stories: on the walk home

2004-10-13T16:11:26Z

On the way home
...breaking down in the backseat
I'm calling home with every intention to speak
"Hello?"
But intentions aren't my actions
I just never thought it'd matter
But it does
And it could be my fault
Still
You'll get the blame
And every single dirty look
That finds it's way into your mirror
While your screaming:
"You meant so much to me"
Well...
"If it meant so much then why'd you let it go?"
(intention, suggestion)
I'm just looking for my bedside manner
and it's true
My middle name is 'honesty'
So I'll give it to you straight
There's nothing special about you or me
Play
Rewind
It's always gonna end the same
Well, what could you expect?
Aplause?
Standing ovation for the girl in the corner shouting for mercy.
"You know what I meant..."
Come on
We based our second chance
On things we can't take back
So I'll never say your name
I'll never let it go
Just, please, don't call me when you're falling down.

if i'm not back in 10 years, then i'm dead

2004-10-13T16:07:27Z

Center stage:
There's a hero and he's falling
But there's the villian and I'll ask him for the time
"It's just late..."
On my walk home
I'll pass your house a thousand times...
And every time I'll throw a pebble
"I don't want to talk"
Just to keep you both awake
Because every night you're sleeping
I'm drawing pictures on my walls
A mural of a city
"Fire! Fire!"
While it's burnt down to the ground
It reminds me of this theatre show
Sad and dark, but never giving up
"Keep it quiet, please."
Somethings aren't worth whispering
So the crowd just sat and watched
While they acted out their lives
But I stood
And I pushed my fist so high in the air
That the roof collapsed upon our heros head
"The just prevail!"
And our hero is dead
It's a comedy of justice
Where the evil will win
He shook my hand like he had met me before
Singing
"The tragedy of trust is the matter of truth
And honesty means nothing with out the lies you tell to prove it."

10 ways to fool your priest

2004-10-13T16:06:15Z

I'm standing in your seventh story window ledge
Asking for answers
Reapting myself with hopes you change your story
'Cause anyway is better
Than walking through your apartment
It reeks of insecurities
And it's painted all in black
"Wait are you waiting for...?"
So I had to ask myself
"I said, 'Well what in the hell are you waiting on?'"
I'm buying time
Selling everything I own
Telling everyone I'm leaving
I'll be back
(I'm a....)
Moth drawn to light
(I'm a....)
Man dressed for disaster
Lets count back
(..three days earlier)
Scene 1; Act 2:
I'm hiding in you're closet
But he's got his hands over your eyes
And a blind fold over his
Just for the fact
So you can't see
And maybe he can't stand to watch himself
While he's...
...you know the story anyway
Well, anyway...
Now I'm walking away
With a worn out tongue and a burnt out memory
And I'm wraping this caution tape
Around my ribs
Across my chest
And
Over my mouth
But just keep breathing out you're window, baby, I'm on you're life support tonight

You Couldn't Pay For This Perfection

2004-09-17T04:06:43Z

I guess I'm supposed to beleive
and just sit back
While you tought me lessons in "self-expense"
I mean
In the best way possible
You're just so fucking unreliable
But it's ending where I stand
And I'll cross the any line that you think about drawing
"Let me...
Just leave."
Hey, I'm so far away
And it's not going to disapear
So I'm sitting and staring
Starting fights with all your mirrors
"...don't beleive, just don't beleive a thing..."
I've been starving myself
"Eat you're heart out"
You can be such a tease...
'Cause you know
You know my heart is where you're home is
And I'm off on this island
Throwing bottles out to sea
And I'm watching waves throw them back at me
"Come on, I can't..."
Just spit it out
'Cause we'll be home before you know
And you'll never get to say
A word
A sentance
Nothing to show what you really meant
So just kiss me on the cheek
And tell me I'm everything you need
"Everything you pretend to be,
Isn't everything,
Yeah, it means nothing to me."

Disaster! Disaster! It's almost over!

2004-09-17T04:05:30Z

"It's already half past..."
I said "I'm not getting any younger."
Not while I'm standing here waiting for you
Thinking of excuses
And maybe a reason
Just maybe you could skip this one
'Cause I know the worst part
Is admitting when you're wrong
When we all know what you're thinking
So force a smile
And strike a match
Then tell us all about how
"I'm never coming back."
But we know better
Yeah, I know everything.
It's all about putting peices together
And knowing where to start
But how did you put it
"It's--"
...about time for an interuption
"Hey, you've had a rough day,
Just relax."
"I-i-it's over..."
Theres a peice of me
That spends most of my time
Wasting time
Just chasing you
And I must have written a thousand letter
But this is the only one I'll ever send
"Conscience, conscience"
Keep me quiet
Like the sentance pasted on your wrist
But I won't beg like the lover
'Cause I'm saving senses
Saving ways to run
I'm the coward that you dream of
And you're just the mistake that I need to make

'three' means forever

2004-08-29T21:46:26Z

It's so sad
And genrally I could say:
"..I'm worried."
But genrally you "don't care."
It's wading somewhere out near where you left your pride
So I'm not stopping you tonight
You just need to hear every word
And I mean it
I mean everything I said
But if I cared enough
You'd scrunch your face and leave
Like it's all the same
Well it's not the same
To me its much more different than anything I had said before
And I've been playing it through my head
So when this comes out
It comes out perfectly
It'll make headlines in your mind
But it's not good enough for you
Not enough to listen to
Whatever
Said,
"It's never enough for you to stop
When everything will keep you away
And all we can do is smile and wave
You'll be sorry
And you'll be wishing I had said it sooner
But you make it so hard."
I just shake my head
And you'll lose yours
"I know... I just... It's not my fault"

So, Said, the Stories Go.

2004-08-26T04:36:32Z

I'm curious
So tell me the news
"How have you been?"
And
"Have you been with him?"
Direct and honest
I suppose it's not what you wanted
Then again
You couldn't have expected much anyway
But I'm not leaving here
Not with out figuring out
How this happened..
I can't say a thing..
"..speachless, just... speachless"
We refuse to talk to one another
Just getting older to fight like kids again
And I think you have me mistaken for someone who'll spend the time
In between books
Getting the story
"Honestly?"
"..No, thanks."
I'll put into terms you can't understand
I am the promise
You are the secret
That's the huge difference between us
So you'll never understand
"Actually.."
You'll never have to understand
And even if the letters I write
Addressed and sent
To the brick behind my ribs
Don't make it past my throat
Then I still have the memories
"I forget... did we...?"
But pack your bags
'Cause I'm not leaving here alone.

Sleep Sleep and Deffinatly No Sleep

2004-08-23T04:07:03Z

Wait,
'Cause I've never been so honest
And I've got some things I'd like to say
"..You've got to focus."
I'm sorry
Said, "I've got a lack of motive"
But I doubt you heard a thing
It's so redundant
"This conversation should be over"
(..I'm over it anyway)
You're so... so..
I dare you..
"Sometimes less is better,
Isn't that what you said?"
Well less is always better
It's better in cases like this
You talk a great talk
But I'm not so impressed that I'll just stop and let go
So get over yourself
(..I'm over you anyway)
It's not that that I hate you
Well, you know I never did
But it's when you keep asking simple questions
And you know there's no simple answer
Sometimes you're so tasteless.
"..I worry about you..."
Just one second..
If you go there, you know
You know too well that I'll follow
This could become interesting
But I'm running
Around
And
Around
The point
It comes as to no interest to me
And I'd bid it farewell
If it hadn't been the reason you come around
So I'm dodging reasons
And it's been said
"This place has lost's it's touch"
By someone close
And it me hit so close.

"I'm waiting..." Says the Clock Tower

2004-08-20T08:01:48Z

Dear 'Never letting go,'
"What is it with you?
You're all robots.
And You're all angels."
Is it showing signs of 'further, faster'?
I'll wait,
Impacient but steady
You're so folded, so centered and crazy.
The way I made you.
The way I love you.
Even if it was...
Well you know it was...
...I'll admit it...
I did too, but I let it go
And that's what the difference is.
So you say my name like it'll end the world.
Then you fall apart in my arms
Where you belong(..?)
Famous for keeping secrets(shhh) on bedsheets
Let it go
And scream it like you nothing else mattered
Because it doesn't
Even if it did, then you know
Oh, you know it didn't
I.... I... I never will.
I keep these posters
And reminders
In case our lives go back to normal
And I'll take these weights from my chest
And hang them, safley fastened to my wrists...
Tell me,
"Where's this headed?"
I just want to know..
When 'common knowledge'
Means a secret kept from me
I'll drive to you're house just to tell you I walked
One, two, five thousand miles to get to you.
"What makes this so hard to understand?"
Now you've been waiting
And I know its "..so silly to think"
But worst of all you still know the one way...
Did I say one...?
The only way to make me stutter
And did I ever mention
All the long nights
That you spent "thinking"
I was shaking from the window sill
But I never missed a single beat
"Please,"
..I take that back..
And round two,
I'm kicking barstools to get back at pictures
While you're busy losing sleep from his [dis]position
Said, it's all up to the cards
"But you said, I heard you say it, I swear..."
But you've done beter than this before
I might as well...
And you know I will,
Be tossing stones at his window
And getting your attention instead.
With a whisper
And a hopefull glance
"I know you said it..."
(Instert the saddest song here)
"I don't thing you'd wash your hands if they weren't dirty."
I miss your wings.

Einstein, Sagan, And Me

2004-08-19T20:19:26Z

"How are you?"
I was sure... so positive
You were kidding
But anyway,
"Well, I did wake up this morning."
I can't beleive it's going to kill me
still attatched
still attatched
still attatched
still attatched
It's gonna kill me.
Almost like this pen wouldn't work alone
(...alone?)
'Cause I said it once before
And I'll say it again
I will never (never never never ever again)
Expect a thing from you
Because "..Freinds are there for friends...."
But I'm no so sure
So you posted up blind
And kept him knocking at your door
But you're so down and out
That you can't hear this
So I'm writing letters to all the lovers:
"Keep you're head in mind,"
I said: "'Cause you can't go wishing on a star tonight,
Her eyes are cloudy.
I could end this letter with wishfull thinking
But I know better, yeah, I know."
I knew it all along
It's just...We just..
Maybe I let it happen.
Because it kept me writing
"It never bothered you before..."
--I'll tie the knot
"...but, maybe I should take that back."
You push the chair--
Maybe I'm content when you're unhappy
It's either you or it's me and
Baby
It ain't me.
You're so set in stone that I call you "Quarry"
"B-b-b-but.."
Look,
"I swear I didn't know.."
Are you ok?
"Be safe?"
"Just be there"
Sundown
Saturday